Push it too far

Since yesterday I have been feeling that my body and my mind aren’t congruous; they didn’t get to click, and my body was extremely exhausted. My sensuality is lost (somewhere). I couldn’t feel things. For example, when I hold the cup, I didn’t feel it. It was no communication between the two (my hand and the cup).  It was such a weird feeling and it was cool to experience them (to know also that I pushed to far). At the same time, I was frustrated since I couldn’t do even simple chores properly. My body was also extremely exhausted from lack of sleep and time changing from a couple trips I had.

It made me wonder how many people are able to live their everyday life without proper sleep plus without proper nutrient, and without proper exercise. Do these people who live imbalance life know the difference between healthy and unhealthy body, mind, and spirit? Do they care? Do they want to care? Well, I can just answer for myself. I care very much, that is why when my body sent the signal to me I listen (Alright, I may push it a little bit too far, but I am listening not just ignore completely them). I took a rest after lunch, and it felt so much better

I made a commitment to myself long time ago that I will become conscious with my health, and I am going to live healthy until the day that I die. This inspiration came from reading many of other people illness stories. Then, I teach myself to eat well, sleep well, and exercise every week. Score from 1 to 10 with this journey, I give myself 9, so I am good.

Tomorrow, I will fly to NY to be a part of Arthur’s Workshop, and I can’t wait!! I miss my absolute incredible teacher very much. When I am around him, I feel like being in a heaven.