Freaky day

This Wednesday has been one of the freaky experiences in my life. I had some form of sickness symptoms which at first, I thought I was sick, but intuitively I didn’t agree with it. They were the reaction of something else.

In the day time, I felt an incredible heat rose up to the surface from the deep source within. I sweated and felt extremely hot. I sweated so much while I was on the phone with Arthur and was talking about our journey together. I also asked my fiancé if he decided to change the temperature in the house, but he didn’t do any of that. This heat wave within was last forever which at a time it’s concerned me.

On top of that, I couldn’t really practice my vocal awareness since I felt the soar in my throat. I separated all the rituals and practiced them at the different time instead of all at once. The weird part was this. For the last ritual, I have been practicing a story to perform to the group. But then on the phone with Arthur, he told me to practice my first vocal awareness performance again, so I decided to practice both today. First, I practiced the story for the group and my throat started to feel very uncomfortable. It felt dry and a bit pain. Then, I thought it would not be good to keep practicing but I continued my practice with my first performance anyway. This time my throat felt absolutely fine. Crap!! Something unusual was happening to me. Well, to make sure that this was something extraordinary, so, I decided to practice the story for the group again. And as what I expected, my throat felt very unhappy.

After I finished my practice I could sense the fear within, but then my intuition guided me that what I felt was the release of my heavy pain-bodies. This particular pain- body had the power over me for so many years, but not anymore. This time, I am serious and my energy is very serious. So, things have shift inside of me which is such an alien feeling!!! I didn’t feel comfortable to have to understand the meaning of all of these while I was home alone. Then, I called my friend to share this experience, so I could ease my inner anxiety. He said that he couldn’t agree more!! He said to me to enjoy and say “thanks “to the experience. Also, we both agree on one thing that I had to not identify myself with any of these.

At night, I started to feel very chill, so I put a blanket (fold twice for more thickness) all over me. My feet and my hands were both freezing. I heard the voice in me again said “this is freaky!!!”